Fear

It was never known to u,
It was never mutual between us,
It was never said to u,
Never was to be serious,

It was always assumed,
It was always shown,
Wasn't always too subtle,
Wasn't always permanent,

It has always scares me
When I was lost for words when u were mentioned
When I was burning in d face when facing you
When butterflies go crazy in my guts,
Just from d sight of you.
When I know, in my heart, my destination,
It will never be you.

But now, never!
Never had felt, though had the thought of,
never can be comprehend
I had to face my biggest fear...


When.... I miss you.

in a heart beat, or...

What would u say?
Asked a senior at work this afternoon.
What would you say?
Would you say 'I do'?
I laugh and told him its not even possible
The question.
He asked again,
Just tell me, what would you say?
If on that faithful day, he asked.
Would you say 'I do' ?
And I, again, laugh it off...
'Its just not possible'
.........
.........
The truth is,
I don't wanna jinx it.
'If' there's anything to jinx
The truth is,
I don't wanna ruin it.
'If' there's anything to ruin.
The truth is,
I know the reality,
The truth is,
I've wished it on every star I see tonight
I've wished it on every breath I take tonight
I've wished it on every thought I make tonight
That I knew what I would say.
In a heart beat. Without hesitation.
But, the truth is, I just know, that in the deepest of the deepest of my critically fragile heart, I just know.
Even upon a shooting star,
We will never be.

.......*keeping fingers crossed, just in case

Brown Leather Jacket

Ceritaku masih sama,
Masih kamu
Yang buat aku tersipu
Yang buat aku diawangan
Yang buat aku hilang kata, tak keruan
Yang buat aku panas dan sejuk disaat yang sama
Aku sudah nyata kamu bukan yang satu
Tapi kamu sering buat aku keliru
Atau aku yang sering buat otak ini keliru tentang kamu
Realitinya aku yang degil, bodoh mungkin
Cinta itu tak akan pernah wujud antara kita
Tapi saat ini, hanya kamu, brown leather jacket, masih diam dalam hati, beraja dalam jiwa..